Ever had the feeling of not wanting to do stuff that are semi-important. The things that are not immediately your top priority, but are still important in the long run. Or having the discipline to do stuff regularly but neglecting it instead, because it is not fun and tiresome to do. Well it happened to me.

So, what happened? Well I am on my way to move out and leaving the job where I am currently working. The things that need to be happening is that I have to find a place to stay in Amsterdam and getting new job to make a living. It is not hard but not fun to do and with that, I started to wander off to do things that are “fun” to do but not very productive or helpful for my upcoming adventure.

I escaped into the world of gaming and alternative reality of youtube and manga. These are things that I like to do in my spare time but I can over do it by neglecting the things that are important. Which result into procrastination or simply laziness.

When I first started writing this blog it was great, it was exciting and fun, but after a while, it became more like work and for work you need to have the discipline to follow it through and here is where I started to neglect and the self sabotaging began. It is to delay a blog post at start and beginning to procrastinate and doing other stuff instead of getting post done in a regular, disciplined and timely way.

Yeah so, what the F is wrong, nothing… but laziness and that’s not a good way to go through with this. Need to work, to play hard.

In a way I have to redeem myself in updating this blog regularly. In a way I have to continue work hard and be disciplined to write every week.

ps. I do not know how  daily bloggers can do it, they must like to blog very much.